HAHAHA.. I just got back not long after watching a movie. AHhhhhh....

I watched The Seeker:The Dark Is Rising. NICE. But my whole family except my youngest sister and myself, didn't like the show. Well... I thought the show was nice and I think Harry Potter was kind of sian-ness already.. I don't know... They are both great movies. What I like about the Seeker was that it was all about finding signs and I LOVE THIS KIND OF THINGS.

It's got a book though. I hope to buy one. SAVING UP now... hahhahaa... Shit there are so many things I wanna buy. Anyway. The movie reminded me of this great book called....I think it was Epsilon? yeah... It was the something of Epsilon or Epsilon... I forgot. But it was great. I don't know... I think my family would have found it boring. But I think it was fantastic. I love books where they find signs, and defeat them and all that stuff. For Epsilon, the main character was a girl so kind of cool. I couldn't take my eyes off the book. REALLY GOOD...hahhahaha... it's so good that I remembered the name hahahaha... okay...half of it.

I think many don't find the Seeker a good movie because maybe they cut the storyline short so that they could fit the standard movie duration. It all seemed to coincidental and too rush. Then my sisters were all fascinated that the fact that the Dark was defeated so quickly and that there were only 2 villains. But I think there are more to this movie...I'll have to get the book.

Oh yeah... Then the four of us, maybe the three (The three mad elder sisters) started going crazy after the movie about the signs and having magical power... Hahhaa... I even stood in the middle of the road where it was drizziling and started saying, "GOSH! The sign!!!" hahahha... I pointed to everything and said it was a sign. HAHHAHHA... so funny...

How I wish I could be like that. Having magical powers to move things, create explosions, move through time, BEING THE LIGHT... hahhaha... cool job. But let's be practical. You won't earn money with it. Unless maybe there was a worldwide blackout...hahahhaha...

Sheesh. Tomorrow is the Oral Presentation. Have to be in school at 9am for practice. I hope I will do well. HHAHAHAHAHA... Also, tomorrow is my uncle's wedding. A simple one. But we're the ones doing the deco. Haix. So troublesome. Should have gotten a wedding planner to do it all. Simple and relax. Now we have to spend money. And my mom looks so tired running around to get materials for the wedding. But I think she enjoys the thinking process of how the wedding would go.

My dad however, suspects that he has gult. Is it spelt like that? Gosh. I'm going to pray for him.

Anyway last words for today...

EVERYTHING IN SINGAPORE RISES. ERP. HAIX...............................................................
LESSON TO LEARN: DON'T DRIVE. USE PUBLIC TRANSPORT. SAVE THE EARTH.

CHINESE IS OVER....................!
I just have to put this up... extreme cuteness...

I HATE MYSELF. I HATE MYSELF. FAT, UGLY, GROSTEQUE. CANNOT DO ANY FUCKING THING. SIMPLE THING LIKE RUNNING AN ERRAND OR WAITING FOR SOME WATER TO FILL THE FUCKING CONTAINER I CANNOT DO. I SIMPLY FORGET? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY AM I SO CURSED? WHY AM I SO CURSED TO BRING UNHAPPINESS AND DISAPPOINTMENT AROUND PEOPLE? WHY AM I SO USELESS? WHY AM I SO USELESS? WHY AM I SO STUPID? WHY CAN'T I JUST DIE? FUCKING HELL. FUCK. FUCK MY DEAREST DUMB SELF. WHEN IS MY ALTERED EGO GONNA STEP OUT OF MY FUCKING UGLY BODY? FAT. STUPID. GROSTEQUE. ALL COMBINED INTO ONE. HOW NICE RIGHT? HOW NICE. I FEEL SO HAPPPPPY GETTING SUCH A GROSTEQUE FACE WHERE NO ONE LIKES. I FEEL SOOOO HAPPY GETTING A FAT BODY WHERE NO CLOTHES IN THE WORLD FITS ME. THANK YOU FASHION DESIGNERS WHO DESIGN FOR SKINNY PEOPLE. THANKS TO ALL THE BRANDED SHOPS FOR SELLING SIZE SO-SMALL-THAT-I-CAN'T-SQUEEZE-IN-AN-INCH. FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT FAT

YEAH. I HAVE A FAT ASS. WANNA BITE? MAYBE THE FATS WOULD GO TO YOUR BREASTS. WHO KNOWS.

OMG... I'm in tears... I was watching YSMM Episode 181 part 4 where Micky tells of his family. SO SAD........................

Yeah... putting it up here. I was like, GOSH..... I'm actually speechless... hahha

I haven't bathed and now it's like 2.15am and I've not done my script for PW OP finished...hahaha.. Goshness...

The tears now reminds me of Tuesday, where we got our final result slips. I'm promoted. But five of my classmates did not promote. I was crying like mad when one of my good buddies did not make it. I know it's not like we won't be seeing each other soon or what but the thought of not having enough time next year to go out or not studying in the same class...really...

Mr. Yap told me yesterday yesterday that this is life. I guess it is really so.

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OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I did this face recognition thingy... hahahaha... go try it...

It's damn weird..hahahaha... I tried another picture with me in specs..hahaha

HAHAHA... I think the Website is trying to console me... maybe you try to compare them to my picture...hahahahhaa...

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OMG!! I forgot to put this up...heex..I haven't bathed and now is like 2.30am i think...How sinful to forget cleanliness when you are watching vids...This is a damn nice DBSK vid...SO CUTE... Just look at Micky...JAECHUN...(one part only la...ahhahaha... damn cute)

MICKY~! ANyway, I watched many Jaechun vids...ahhahahaha they are so cute... SOULMATES...dots...hahahaha how cute. This other vid is so funny... watch..

HAHHAAA>..anyway, better go bathe liao...hahahaha...

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OMG.......I cannot stand it anymore... This song is too nice... GOSHNESS!!!!!!!!!

HEY! I have a sudden CRAZE over DBSK Micky Yoo Chun...hahahahha ( Sung Min still first...hahahahhaa sounds so despo.) ANyway... Micky is so cute... Watch this...

Haix... Some guys can be so petty, some friends can be so forceful. Haix... nobody in particular...

Anyway, it's confirmed that I will be going to Hong Kong from the 5th of Nov to the 11th of Nov!!! ALL MY SUJU VIDS!! ALL MY DBSK VIDS!!! SUNGMIN! MICKY!!! Ohhhh!!!!!! not seeing them for a day is just like taking my breath away... never mind. I shall bring my Suju book...heex...

That means I'll be missing lots of lessons... I'm so glad that PW would have ended by then. My sister refuses to take over me even though she has holidays... I'm the one taking As next year you know... Haix. So... Hong Kong... NON-STOP shopping. Gosh... I come home must have massage... besides if it's shopping for things like clothes I have seriously no interest unless they are affordable. I wonder if they sell and SUJU or DBSK stuff... Goshness... WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

This is not happening... disappearing in this weird world. I heard the air there is kind of bad. I think I'll get sick. I'm more worried about my mom who would be going with me... Hope we'll both be fine by then.

haix.

Oh I haven't mentioned about the stupid chikopeh at the bus 73... Twice already lor... This time my face was damn black when he turned around to look...The first time I encountered him right, he turned his head like 90 degrees just to look at me... or maybe the girl beside me... whatever.. Still chikopeh. I wanted to gouge his eyes out... He stared from my shoes to my skirt. I know everyone stares at my shoes cause they have not been washed for a year with all the grey grey stains plus my freakish dragon and phoenix drawings. But he did not have to stare at my skirt too... for so many times... Today, I met him again and it was like I folded my arms and put on these fierce eyes and damn black face. I think the whole bus felt my aura... hahahahahhaha but really! The moment I saw him, my face was like black as charcoal. He turned to look twice. After that he refused to look. When he got down the bus, I stared at him until the bus left. FIERCE EYES. I learnt from Faith to stare at the person anyway...ahhahahahahhaha...

Firstly he was balding and that is yucky enough. He somemore tried to grow some freaking beard but it is damn unsuccessful with all that strands and the unsuccessful Lao Fu Zi mostache and that mini one-lined eyes. He is yucky enough. Still want to stare at girls.

Please you have no right to stare at girls. You are old and ugly, you have no right to stare at us like that, whether you are not having dirty thoughts or not. You didn't have to turn so many times to look at me or the girl beside me... it's irritating... and then go down the bus still stare. You think your eyes like the Cat from Shrek is it? Sorry hor. I think you need to spend millions to get your eyes done man. ANyway, go check out the Yunan centre please, balding head is really a turn off. But it really doesn't matter to you right? that just fits your dirty mind right?

Si chikopeh...

Well, my rage is gone... I think he is like sneezing to his death right now... hahahahhahahha.... oops...I'm kind of evil right? Sometimes I think I offend people very easily...something is seriously wrong with me... hahahahhahaa... I think because I tend to criticise people more than praise... especially when they tell me about their favourite idols. I would just openly insult their idols... Kind of bad right? I always feel bad after that. But I can't control my mouth from criticising their idols, especially when I don't like them whether looks or character... Haix...

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Asnira sent me the link to this youtube vid and I went to see it. OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's Kyu Hyun and this little girl singing. But why omg is not because of Kyu Hyun. But the girl!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS GIRL IS SUPER POWERFUL, I'M SO ENVIOUS!!!!!!!!!! OMGNESS!!!!!!!! MY HEART SKIPPED A BEAT WHEN SHE STARTED TO SING. IT IS STILL BEATING LIKE KINDA WEIRDLY NOW!!!!!!! gosh I'm nuts. But seriously... SHE'S DARN GOOD. Never seen an Asian that could sings like that...!!!!!!!




OMG!!! must see!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HEY!!!!! another Sungmin treat...hahahaha

I don't know what is wrong with me. I keep forgetting things. I keep forgetting all my appointments and everything. Why can't remember?

Why do I abuse my friends? Why do I neglect them? Why do I forget them? Why am I so selfish? Why am I such beast-hearted? Why? What am I? Why am I saying this?

It's like I always seem to be neglecting or abusing my friends. When I go shopping, I put on a black face. This time I forgot today there would be a steamboat. What is this? WHAT IS THIS? WHAT ARE YOU DOING? WHAT ARE YOU TRYING TO DO?

Why don't you learn how to treasure your friends? Why?

I hate going out now. Sometimes I wish I can lock myself at home and slack all day. I hate to spend money. It's not like I am overflowing with money. I hate my life. Why can't I save? Why am I so fat? Why am I so grotesque? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?

Why do I only have $1 in my piggy bank? Is this why I am afraid of going out? What's so fun about taking my mother's money all day long? I've already spent about 50 over dollars already. Isn't that enough? Isn't it time to stop? Don't you know you are not rich? Why am I crying? Is it because I am poor? Or is it because you are just a jerk that neglects your friends? What are you to them, have you ever thought? What am I to myself? Why am I speaking to myself? Why am I alive?

Why? Why? Why? WHY?

Confusion? Madness? Alive? Live? Die? Die-

Will anyone cry for me? Does anyone love me? Will anyone throw flowers in my grave while they bury me? Will anyone wave goodbye? Will anyone close the coffin for me? Will anyone believe me? Will I be left in the grave? Will anyone visit my grave? Will anyone remember me? Will anyone care?

hahah... I ripped the songs from Asnira's new SUJU album... HEHEHE... But I am going to pre-order mine!!!!! With 2 new folders... ahahhaa...

Haix. I feel so noobish... I keep disturbing Asnira with all my noobish questions about how to order. hahaha I going to email the person in charge... I hope I don't look so dumb.

Anyway... PEOPLE WHO ARE SEEING THIS... vote for Han Kyung to hold the Olympic torch, he is at no. 2 place now!!!
http://www.icoke.cn/site/olympic/moment/otrv/ico_index_otr.aspx#voting?id=490. Yeah. VOTE FOR HIM! hahahahaa...ok kind of nuts... Going to email the person. Scared I anyhow then never get to order it... Haix...

Hahahhaa...

MAN!!!!!!!!!!! I've finished watching the One Litre Of Tears drama serial. DAMN SAD!!!!!! >.<,

AYA DIED!!!!!!!WAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ASOU ALONE AND STILL LOVE HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!HER FAMILY STRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ok.. a little crazy... I think I am kind of depress so much that I have to go back to school tomorrow thaT I am forcing myself to watch all these depressing dramas... I am loading the Movie now...while I go bathe. Gosh. I cried at every episode without fail. My eyes are swollen like fishballs. Ok...maybe not so bad. But I feel tired just by opening my eyes already.

Tomorrow have to go school somemore. Then got drama... Then must bring the turtleneck... I don't think I have anymore... I asked my mom about it and she simply nodded her head without helping me... Haix... I'M TIRED OF SCHOOL... Feel bad about that.

Anyway, kind of sorry for spoiling the shopping trip I had with Faith, Elaine and Eileen. I don't know what was wrong with me that day. Just got so pissed and black face like somebody offended me. They had to tahan for hours. =p. Apart from that I suggested the reason could be that I just didn't like shopping. Or the place. Or the money needed to spend. But usually I wouldn't be that bothered by such things. I don't know what's wrong with me....

Haix. The 1 Litre of Tears show is like giving me the urge to go visit the hospice. I told my mom about it and she said she might go there sometime just not now maybe. But I think we are going to help out some old folks home around nov. Don't know anyone interested? hahahaha

Oh yeah!!! I put up what asnira informed me today!!!!!!!!!!!! Sungmin never looked cuter.

Hey i'm going to put up the Timeless Vid... Damn sad. Comes with lyrics. Sing with it... =3

BEFORE I REALLY GO SLEEP (now 2.45am) I am going to put up one last vid of Chunji where Sungmin Lipsync the F.T Island's Love Sick or Sarangalhee (don't know if I spelt it right). At the last part... SUNGMIN sang it out... for a few seconds though. SO NICE...........................................



Sungmintised =3
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HEYYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!! TIME FOR SUJU!!!! Asnira told me that if I pre ordered the SuJU 2nd Album right, I would get folders of SUJU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOSHNESS... I'll go check it out later. ANyway, HMV i heard the preordered is 40 bucks... too ex...

Well, SINCE MY PROMOS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SUJU, HANAKIMI, YUHEE THE WITCH....YAYNESS.... I've got to show you this... listen to their singing... SUngmin is so cute with the guitar!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WOW... well done amanda... tomorrow is history cum chem MCQ paper and you haven't even studied IH... SEA you finished 3 countries is it enough?

Haix. I'm behaving like idiotic Pip. I'm going to do some Chem MCQ before I sleep since my Chem paper is right in the morning at 8-9. Then after 9, till 2 I can study IH... But what about my SEA. I only focused on Burma, Indonesia, and Vietnam. Which I think are the most important ones. Haix. Watch television somemore....

Ok. here's the plan for myself. For tomorrow, from 9am till 11.30am, it's speed memorising for Lectures - Fall of the Iron Curtain, Decline of USSR, Korean War. That's it. after that from 11.30am till 2pm I'll study my SEA. YAYNESS... SEA study indepth Burma, Indonesia, Vietnam, Essay Questions and read through the other countries. Got time then reread IH. Anyway, I was so history-brainwashed last night that all I could think of was History and not the exam that I was going to take which is Literature. Anyway. The Literature Exam is rather all right. But I doubt I'll get a B. I hope to. But it was difficult, therefore harder to maintain my B for my Lit.



I hope I REALLY do well for history. Especially SEA. I studied so much and hard for it. IH kind of boring to me already... compared to the last time. Maybe because I can remember a lot of SEA more than I can remember IH. Haix... Let's count the American presidents since Eisenhower. (I'm really typing from what appears from my mind) Eisenhower, Kennedy, Johnson, Nixon, Ford, Carter and Reagan. Hey I actually remembered. WOOHOO....hhahahaha



Anyway. Something to really cheer me on...

SO CUTE RIGHT???????? When I was slowly taking my time to do my Vietnam overview, I couldn't help staring at these two pictures!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! On my desktop somemore!!!!!!!!!! ultimate destress... Of course these 2 pictures are portable... I took pictures of it in my handphone already... hahahaha ULTIMATE DESTRESS KIT. (shit. so despo =3)

Sungmintised
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DAMN... I haven't started on Othello... going to start after this...

My right eye have been twitching the whole day and you can imagine how frustrated I was.... VERY SUAN..... and the worst thing is, only one side is SUAN........................................................So i went to research on it and guess what. Twitching of the eye is due to stress, fatigue and intake of caffeine.

THE CURSE OF THE CAFFEINE.............................I drank 2 cups of coffee. DAMN. And my eyesight is going to be worse since to whole day I've been using the magnifying glass to read the Great Ex (according to Faith). Goshness... the curse of the twitching eye again. Damn the words of my Great Ex to be so freaking puny for ants to see only...and it is so darn like a sleeping pill...

I found out also, if your eye twitches for two or three days, must go see a doctor. Then if your eye closes while you twitch is very serious liao...Goshness... I hope it would not go on for so long. I'd better stop on the curse of the caffeine.No coffee.............AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! I need chicken essence. The very strong kind... maybe the one with ginseng and cordyceps. plus fish. bestest...................

Twitching=SUANness

I cannot tahan already... going to study after this... =3






Super Junior - Don't Don

(Sung Min looks so cool =3)