HEYY... just finished watching Spider Lillies. It was OKAY... I guess. Not very graphic. Just two girls kissing. I felt it was a bit draggy. Well, Eternal SUmmer was COOL. I guess I still like watching Gays than Lesbians. Well.

Anyway. I've just put on my links the Toma Ikuta fanlisting webbie. HAHAHAHA... TOMAfied. Don't worry I still am SUMGMINtised. HHAHAHAHHAH... funny language.

Hahahha... This is from Hanazakari no Kimitachi e. HAHHA... so funny...

Anyway. Got to go.

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Hey... Here are some vids of Ouran High School Host Club Voice Actors. Don't know what the hell they are talking about but just hearing their voice is nice. Listen to it. Tamaki's voice actor is so CUTE!!!

HANA KIMI (JAP VERSION) EPISODE 4 IS COIMING OUT TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Nakatsu!!! Toma Ikuta!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Gosh. I'm nuts. Anyway. I love the Japanese version of Hana Kimi. The Taiwan Version totally lost in my opinion. Besides most of the guys in the show are much more cute than the one in the Taiwan version. HHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHA

Can't wait man. But cannot watch now... not on crunchyroll yet. Damn. Hope to find pictures of NAKATSU and paste it everywhere. WHAHHAHA... So crazy right? HAHAHAH...

Oh yeah. That day when we went to Esplanade to watch King Lear, I remember going to HMV in the City Link Mall and I found Teppei's solo album. Looks so damn tempting but the STUPID price tag cover the face cannot see at all... -.-

HMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM

Bored now. In school. Should be doing homework though. After watching some good SUJU performances...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!! Hahahhahaha.

Yox. I'm very happy today. My class celebrated my birthday with this gigantic cake and singing very loud in the canteen. I don't know why but I felt SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO touched that I hugged everyone of them. The guys, maybe a half-hug. Too tall la... hmmm... Full huggies f0or the girls. Hahahha.

Anyway. I actually wanted to cry... A bit paiseh la. But really really touched. Thanks Sihan for the cake. Damn big. I think everyone knew about it because I've been announcing it everywhere la... BHB. I know. I think I felt quite touched was because I have never had my whole class to celebrate my birthday with me. At most in secondary school I get is a shake and wish. Of course a birthday cake celebration with my closest friends. But never with the entire class standing in the canteen singing Happy Birthday song with a gigantic cake and to me alone. I felt so damn touched. But not suprised though. I was "warned" by Hong Siew that I should expect a suprise. But I expected maybe a present and not a cake. I think the cake means so much more than a present now.

Anyway I got this sweet present from my Lao Gong, aka Tsu Hui. Hahaha... Haven't really opened that. Half-way. Some soap thing that smells damn nice. Thanks!!!!! Asnira sent me an email with the links to some SUJU stuff and a CUTE PICTURE OF SUNGMIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! whahahhahaha... THANKS! Gosh. happy. Happy. Elaine, Faith and Eileen offered to buy me lunch. But I didn't like people treating me to lunch, because I'll always feel paiseh. Like the birthday cake, I feel paiseh in having them to buy it for me... hahhahaha...

But birthday is still a weekday. I didn't get to go K-box. But my mom say we can go on Saturday, Yay! And I ate Hans today so it was still okay. Though the GRILLED PORK CHOPS tasted like two pieces of puny rock. Hahahhaahha. I love my family, and friends. Makes me smile. :)

But my dad bought me a cake. He is SO SWEET. He came back to Hans from work just to eat with me then go back off to work. And bought me a cake before he left. Though I haven't cut the cake yet and it's about 40 minutes to 12. I hope he comes home soon. :) ...

Oh yeah. Sort of the whole class have to turn up for the Parents' Day thing. My mom was a bit disappointed. I could tell. I shall not let her down. I will SCORE WELL IN PROMOS>>>!!!
Oh. Another thing. I'm going to upload several photos of Ian Mckellen's trip to NYJC on the 20th July. WITH SPECIAL THANKS TO NY CONNEXIONS FOR THE PICTURES. Or was it the Photographic club? Erm anyway, THANKS TO BOTH, we could get such gorgeous pictures.

HAHHAHAHHAH!!!!!!!! Now, It's the 24th of JULY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy sha lala, it's so nice to be happy!!!!!!!!! Haengbok will be my fate today. I'll let no teachers scold me... :)

I haven't done any of my homework. Gonna do it like now while watching Jigoku Shojo. Hahahahhaa.... It's craziness, and uncertainty. :0 Well, I went back to watch snips of the eternal summer. Of course including the sex scene la. It is like throughout the whole show, the most interesting part. HMMMMMM>>>>!!!!!! maybe I'm a pervert...WHAHHAHAHAHA...or maybe, it's the most good part where I think the guy Jonathan finally gets to be with Shane more intimately then ever, without the girl in between and not as friends only. I mean Jonathan at that moment got his wish. Okay, they never mentioned about his wish in the movie but to me he has been sort of waiting for it la... so I was kind of happy for him. hhahahaha...

Call me perv if you want to. It's not going to affect me... :) I am 17. LALLALALALALLALA...Anyway. Got to do some homework liao. :)

WOW>>! Time passes real fast these days. It's going to be my birthday tomorrow. Want to go K-box. But my Dad don't want to join me. Say got a lot of work.....:'( Well, at least my mom's going and she said she's going to sing her heart out. Hope they have the Hokkien song, "Qing Nan Wang" or something like that. That song is so funny la...

It will go like..."qing nan bong, (something I don't know).....................AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH......(then something I don't know again)" which is really funny. Okay. I'm entertaining myself here. In front of the school computer. Smiling at myself....

Hmmm... what should I get for Sai Gin. Her birthday is the same as me. HAHHAHAHA....Anyway. Yeah. How? So difficult. Sai Gin's so simple yet so difficult...AhhhHHhh... Another cheemnology now hey. To human-kind, Lion-kind, and creatures that are too small to be seen (a.k.a microscopic organisms.) [I got these phrases from the Seagull play which I think is very funny], what should I buy or make for her?

I have no money currently at hand and I am in debt. Gosh. Anyway, did I tell you I have my Harry Potter book already... But I'm not going to read it before my The Picture Of Dorian Gray finishes. But everyone, irritatingly, is telling me the ending. What Harry Potter survives, Lupin dies, Hermoine and Ron marries. Whatever. I'm going to take it that everyone dies and then I'll pretend surprised by the ending. WHAHAHAHHAHAHHA....

Okay. No side-tracking.... What shuld I get for Sai Gin? Probably go and take a look at Art Friend to make something for her. :)

Oh gosh the font is very cute. Well you won't get to see it anyway.

Hahhaha... Talking to myself is so damn fun. Nobody will rebel or tell you off. HHAHAHAHAHAHHA....

So random. Anyway, what was I going to say? Oh Yeah. Tell you about this morning. Kellett sort of lectured me or maybe tell me or something about my latecoming 4 times in 2 weeks only. Thi s I know is my fault. But hmmm.... He thought I was absent on Friday? I told him the moment I reached school on Friday that I was late and here... Haix... STM. And he ended off, "I have nothing to say." Then I was like thinking, I have nothing to say too....hahahhaa. Anyway, another cool thing happened today. Just before this break we had History, and Kellett announced that he was producing a play The Importance of Being Earnest, by Oscar Wilde and expects us to attend. Cool. Why not. $20 on edusave and on a Thursday. Yet another play!!! It would be my 4th one then. Then Argamenon would be the 5th. Wow...

I'm sort of challenging myself to watch as many plays/ musicals/ performances this year. More of plays though. Gosh. Hahhahaha...

Got to go back already. Wanna do some chemistry and maybe some scheduley thingy. :)

Hey, I've just finished watching the movie 盛夏光年 (eternal summer). It's a semi-gay show I guess. Quite sad that they didn't really become bf-bf. Haix. I mean the friend already had sex with him, doesn't it mean anything at all to his friend since he's liked him since young?

Poor thing. Poor Jonathan. At least they are still friends then. Gosh. Now it's 4.00am. I haven't done my chinese homework because I was watching the movie. Gosh. OOps. Better go now before I am late for school tomorrow...

Yeah. It was quite pitiful about the characters, and yet life still goes on. Really good play. Very realistic. They really smoked there. Gosh. The smoke. Anyway. IT WAS GOOOOOOOD. Who cares about the smoke.

Today we were like rushing so I didn't really took any photos.

Anyway, got to go do Chinese. See you.

.Rm.Ch.Ls.Fb.Rh.

OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I've finished watching King Lear. It was DAMN. DAMNED. DAMNED GOOD. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hAHHAHAHAHAHAHahahahha. I cried during the show. It was so touching. There were quite a number of scenes which I had tears welled up in my eyes, but when Cordelia died, I was like OMG! And the way King Lear cried over his daughter, OH, THAT WAS IT. I cried.

After the play, I went to the toilet, and then came out to ask how everyone was going to go home. Elaine and Sam were going to "Lombang" Lester's father's car to Ang Mo Kio. But I was thinking, By the time I reached Ang Mo Kio there would be no bus home. So I decided to go to the MRT. I was alone at that time because Eileen went off with her friend, Dom and his classmates on a Taxi.

So I rushed for the last train which terminates at Kranji. But when I reached the City Link Mall, it was closed. I couldn't reached the MRT station. And it was already 12.02 am. But the door closes at 12.15am. WEIRD>>>>!

And so everyone was like kind of stuck la. I went up the escalator that pointed Nicoll Highway. I saw a bus stop I was like, "OH GOD! THANK YOU!". But when I reached the bus stop, there weren't any bus for me. So I went to try walking through the Marina Square place. But I met May and her friend there and I asked her how she was going back. She said by car and she asked me and I told her MRT. And then she went, "But there is no more Mrt trains anymore."

I went, "Oh Gosh I'm stranded here." May told me to ask someone to fetch me home. SO I called my sister and she was like, "so, what you want me to do?". I was like never mind. I walked towards the Marina Square place in front of Esplanade and I saw a bus stop with a 56 double deck that passed by. I was like, "OH THANK YOU, DEAR LORD."

Worried that it could be the last bus, I quickly crossed the pedestrain that seemed ages to turn green man. I looked at the timing for the last bus. It was 12.20am. But it was only 12.07am. I was like, "YIPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Anyway, so 56 bus came three minutes late. I was so panicky that I kept putting and pulling in and out of my card holder. I got on the bus without tapping the card. Which I rolled my eyes to tap again. Even though the bus driver thought I could hear him tell me to tap my card when I was blasting my ear with my phone.

The moment I sat down I prayed. Read my book and started to take more pictures. Reached home, started to take more pictures again. I've decided to take pictures of all the plays I've went to see and the play that Drama put up with me as one of the company.

My church!!! At night!!!

Well, going to sleep soon. Tomorrow got church, and going to watch Seagull matiny tomorow. Gosh. MORE PLAYS!!!!!!!!!!!YIPEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I can't control myself already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TODAY (more like yesterday since now is like 2.35am) SIR IAN MCKELLEN CAME TO NANYANG JC AND I GET TO SEE HIM AND I GET TO TAKE PICTURE OF HIS AUTOGRAPH!!!

Okay. Actually I took another one with my phone but it wasn't very clear, so I got Lester to infrared his to mine. Anyway, AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Anyway, Sir Ian Mckellen is so cute that he forgot the date today and he just wrote the word "today"...SO CUTE. He's cute and he is 68 years old. Haahhahaa.

Kind of jealous of Ms Kwok getting a kiss from him. But it's not only that that I am happy. The way he talked to us is so real. He's so nice and is no prima-donna. Gosh. I was so touched when he sort of unexpectedly performed a speech I forgot by Sir Thomas something something written by Shakespeare himself. And it was BRILLIANT. I tell you it is like watching him, you become one of the actors on stage itself acting as the person he was talking to in the play. I mean it was so real and that speech really created a large impact on me. I was so touched not only by the words about sending the immigrants off just because they are inferior to you and something about they may be living like hell and you sit there complaining like kings and queens. I can't really remember the words, but I actually felt the emotions. I can still remember the way he talked, his gesture, his eyes. Those eyes caught my attention the most. It was almost I could feel and sense what he was trying to convey. I mean. I don't know if anyone would ever believe me when I say this. I mean really.

Then he gave us a last speech of advice of the JC students. Oh my gosh. He openly said that he was Gay and that struck me because, he is being really honest about himself. He told us about him meeting up with Nelson Mandela, something about having this constitution that there would be no discrimination against people regardless of their sexuality. Something like that. I didn't realise what he was saying until when Ms Kwok told us during the BBQ just now only that he wanted us to fight for what we want. I mean fight on to achieve our dreams and sort of be yourself.

This whole experience left me so "drift-ful". Trust me. After that I went so yayapapaya over the meeting. Oh my Gosh. I still cannot believe I actually saw him up close. Gandalf the Grey, Magneto from X man. Standing right in front of me. Can you actually believed it?

I couldn't really concentrate after that because I was like thinking, "I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, I'VE JUST MET SIR IAN MCKELLEN, ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"

But really who would forget this. I think being in JC isn't so bad after all. I'll use it as an experience to open up myself to discover myself. To study hard. Because it's because of NY I get to see him. Special thanks to the GP teacher, whose name I forgot, who got all this happening for us.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Anyway, I had my farewell party today. My drama seniors has graduated from the CCA!!!! I feel so sad about that and happy for them. I don't know. Today I'm just happy. Ate lots of stuff. Then saw a lot of stars. Then heard and tell GHOST STORIES. My favourite. WHAHHAHA.

Well, I can't actually post the pictures taken by the NY connexions. But, when they have uploaded it, I will download it and put it here. I tell you....!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hey...Not feeling very good today. Cried. Don't know. Lost. Very bad mood. Black Face. I'm still like always pondering on what I am and should be doing. Studying has become a something ancient to me. Keep doing PW non-stop. Hate it already. Going to finish it up in the next 15 minutes or so. Still have homework- Mao's Tutorial, just found out about it. Maybe he did mentioned it but I forgot. Gosh. What is wrong with me? Even Mr Yap says my jest is gone. My enthusiasm in studying or anything is gone like always. Everyday. Almost everyday.

Well. I'm going to be much better, I hope, tomorrow. But Anyway. Keeping you updated on my favourite stuff...Yeah right. This entry is all about me, me and me. More me. Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me Me.

Sorry. A bit over narcissistic. Well. People say I'm vain. Okay. Only my sisters. Well, I'm going to leak out my secrets today. No point keeping them. My habits. Juicy habits.

Hahaha... making me sound so interesting when I'm more of gray and a bit colourful.

Vain. I can stare at myself in the mirror for 2hours maybe? I don't know. I'll try posing here and there. Seeing which side of me looks better...HAHAH. Also after that I'll talk to myself in the mirror, like an idiot. I know. Like, I'm fat or something. And then I will keep trying to smile because I have a hideous smile so I must practice smiling more naturally rather than monstrously, like how I would smile to scare my mother. WHAHAHAHAA....

Sophie says that I'm boy crazy... Many say I like pretty guys. I don't deny. They say my taste are guys that look like girls. Hmmmm... True. Boy crazy...? No. More of BOY-BAND crazy? there's a difference, you know. About guys looking like girls. Erm... probably I have peculiar taste? I think I just have a very weird sense for beauty. I admit I am quite mean sometimes because I can criticise a male celeb's look like there's no tomorrow. Sometimes only. Probably some of you have experienced that. Most of the time I can't remember after that.

Talking about Boy-Band Crazy. Korean Bands! Hahaha. Intro the Korean "Flu"? Hahaha... Super Junior, TVXQ, Big Bang, Battle, Shinhwa and The Trax are what I usually hear now. They are really good. SuJu best to me...Hahhahaha....

Gotta go. Dad nagging. Got homework to do still though now it's 1.52 am.

I feel so much happier now after having so many days of sorrow, misery and anger, as I have written in my previous "cheemnology" entry... I had this book that is called Minute Motivator. I remember it said something about looking at the bright side... or looking over the dark cloud to see the sun. Something like that. And it's really true! Today, I was supposed to be much nervous, tired and frightened because I was going to have my 'A' Level Chinese Oral Examinations...

But the whole day turned out to be one of the best days I've ever had. I mean I was like thinking to myself, why should I sulk at the choice that I made? The choice to enter JC. I should make full use of it. And I think it was quite miraculous because for a few days, I had come across TV Ads or programmes that hinted to me to make full use of the decision I've made. Like the actor would say something like he made a choice and he has to face the consequences to it but he would make the consequences benefit him...blah blah blah... something like that.

So it was like God was trying to tell me that I should cherish my own choice. My free will. All those signs! So I told myself. I'm going to be happy today. I was like smiling like an idiot in the hall before I took my examinations. I was like telling myself, "I have Jesus on my chest, God embracing me from behind, and the Holy Spirit in my heart and mind. So there is nothing to be afraid of." I was still nervous... But by thinking that I felt more confident. And when I was having the oral conversation, it turned out to be the best I've done for my whole life in the aspect of Chinese orals!! hahhahahaa...

Then after orals I was like quarantined for half an hour and I went to get my literature exam paper...Guess what I've got? A 'B'!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's like after sort of getting a 'U' grade for chemistry, and a sub pass for Math and probably a sub pass for History, it's like God's gift to me!!!!! A 'B'! I'm so happy I'm lost for words now...

Anyway. Just to update this blog for a while... I seem to have sunken very deep into Korean Bands now. Like SUJU and TVXQ. Thanks Asnira for the influence for TVXQ and Battle Shinhwa, and teaching me how to get their songs...hahhahahaa...

Anyway. I'm too lost for words now because I'm so happy that my day has been this great. Thank God.

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Haha... Haven't been posting very happy things but it just seems that life is so not perfect after all. I mean things tend to get in my way almost all the time. I get angry. I get upset. I get frustrated.



But when I truly start to think, actually, that's all part of life. Nobody should be blame for getting angry at oneself. Because that's all what life is about. Getting angry can be beautiful. Getting upset can be beautiful. Getting frustrated can be beautiful. It's all about perspective.



You might be asking me, how can all these emotions in you be beautiful? Why label these darker emotions as beautiful?



But let me ask you. Who is it that labelled things that are beautiful and ugly in the world? Who else other than ourselves. These darker emotions are beautiful because they are all part of who we are. We may try to hurt ourselves in the process but it is still who we are, and what we are like. Isn't it?



Hahaha. Sorry for suddenly saying all these cheemnology. WAHHAHHAHA...

Gosh.. I hate it when I have no printer that is working at home. Now I've sent something from this computer to the school's printer. I was only going to print 4 pages of stuff and have already paid 20 cents with my ez-link. But later there was this J2 who looked so poor thing, like she owed me something. Then later she said she was going to print a lot of stuff. From A set to J set!! All test papers. If only I have stopped dwindling around here, I would have sent the document earlier saving me 20 cents. Haix... I'm like totally giving up on PW for like now. Beside me there is a group that is so enthu about it.

I wonder if I could be as good as them. Actually assessing everything. Gosh. They're good. Hahaha. Hope they don't catch me writing about them. Since i'm just next to them.

Anyway, I'm going to have my Chinese 'A' Level Oral Examinations soon. In about 20 minutes or so. Gosh. i totally suck at any orals. I've always gotten the lowest marks in my class for orals. Haix. Never mind that. I will do my best. Wish me luck.

I want to sleep-

Why too much coffee is bad? This is why...


Trust me.