HI!! I'm at Elijah's house. ahhahahahahahahahahahaha.... Playing...nothing... everybody's got n instrument to play but I got no triangle to play...It's like the only instrument I know how to play lor... Me and Sai Gin can only sing.... hahahahahahha

Tiao... I cannot play instrument.. Those people playing instrument all playing songs that I don't know how to sing one... So I might as well blog lor... Sianxxx... Sai Gin is peeking at what I'm typing lor... She say she DA DA FANG FANG... Tiao...

Everybody peeking lor... Sophie very extra... Go take my face... I give Sophie my autogaphed one better right?

HAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA... Got to go... It's so lame to blog when everyone is looking....DOTS...

That's so sophie... YEW>!

Man... I'm so guilty... WAAAAA!!! I squashed a small poor frog on the road when I came back from my aunt's house about 11pm+.

I slept in the car and was probably groggy... and also maybe it's too dark... or maybe I was probing on the "injury" I had from PE cause I hit my injury against the door of the car and it hurt like shit...

What's that!!! hahahaha that's my sister in the chair... hahahhaa

Anyway, yeah... watching SUJU stuff now so BYEBYE...

.Rm.Ch.Ls.Fb.Rh.

I feel like running away from home... I am not welcomed home at all... My sisters refused to listen to me talk because I talk too loud or too longwinded. I hate being at home. Everyday someone shuts me up... I never get to talk. I never get to speak up... What's the use of living?

Even crying here when I'm typing is noisy to my sister... Can't she just fuck off to her own room? Can't I have my little privacy? I don't have at all... I cannot talk freely, I cannot sing freely, I cannot speak up freely... What the fuck. What's the use of living when nobody even hears me at home?

Everything I do is just being noisy. They say when you ask you get an answer. But what did I get?

I get a shut up everytime. I get a fuck up everytime. I get a I-don't-want-to-answer-you-because-you-are-so-fucking-dumb look.

What for live?

What for live when I get a scolding everyday from my father? He scold me because I don't prepare at night for school. He scold me even if I prepare yesterday night for school. I don't feel at home almost all the time. I hate my home. He even scold me for not putting on antiseptic cream for my knee. How would I know? I'm just a black sheep of the family LIVING IN MY OWN WORLD... as what my sister said. I don't belong here. I don't deserve life.

I have tried to cut myself though it turned out to be a little scratch. It bleed a little. So what. SO WHAT? Why couldn't I just cut myself all the way? AND JUST BLEED TO DEATH.

Already I'm so troubled by my math, they have to just add on to it.

My parents asked me why did I talk so crude? Isn't that what they have been speaking and I'm just following what they do. My father scolds me most of the time ain't I following that now?

I should just die... I should go clean that kitchen knife I used before my tiny drop of blood would taint their quiet and peaceful and tranquil lives. TO HELL WITH ME.

Hahhaha... Okay... I've wasted a lot of time uploading all the photos... tomorrow got math test!!! Shit... Anyway... I just found out several cute stuff...

Valentine's Day is over... Man I should have posted this earlier... like a few hours before the Lovey hour is over. Anyway. I received cards and rose Which I am so touched! my 宝贝0737!!! You rock... for a lonely single-for-life person here I actually would receive so many things for valentine's day, I'm so 感动!!

Haahhaha... Starting to use chinese...Anyway... I'm just happy that Valentine's Day was a good day. Thinking about it... Tomorrow I have drama performance. We are supposed to dramatise Ms Kwok's poem... One thing I'm scared about is that all the MF people in NY would be surprised by my act... Of course I won't be doing this alone... I hope I don't screw up tomorrow's performance...

By the way, I didn't do Chemistry work..Die..Ms Teh gonna kill me.. But I'm gonna sleep! Bleahx.

I'm going to start mugging already. Since I sort of pon Math, I'm going to work hard now...

I pon because we were watching Casonova which was so funny. But it was kind of frustrating if that Signor Salvato is such a good liar. Everyone just falls into his plans. But we only got to watch half-way because a teacher came in and then started telling us that she has lessons in the room and that we weren't supposed to use the room...blah blah blah. Like I care? Ahhahahaha.

I mean they expects the...about 7-9 of us to crowd around a puny television. Besides, the school Library only allowed like TWO persons to one television. Argh...There aren't many same DVDs to go around...

Tomorrow is Valentine's Day...The lovey dovey day aka Friendship day. I'll probably celebrate the friendship problem all my life. LONELY...I'M SO LONELY...I HAVE NOBODY...I'M ALL ON MY OWN....lalalalala...Nahx...hahahahah so drama... But yeah.. I never bought any roses for my friends cause I'm like freaking broke...haix... Being rich will never happen with all the expenditure.

Happy Valentine's day to all especially those sluts who needs true love...hahahaha.....Just kidding. Happy Valentine's Day to everyone in the world, and may we hold strong as one to put love at a higher ground.

Love is the only rule to obey.

Haix... Moorthy and Lu Ting. Showing signs of quitting drama...Or felt that drama is so not their kind. I don't know why... But I kind of felt sad. it's like all it's left from my class is only a few people. And I thought Drama would be better but they two don't intend to stay in the CCA anymore. haix...

But whatever the case, I cannot go there and squeeze their shoulders and say," you better stay in drama or I'll kill you and slaughter your whole family." Hahaha...That would be so sadist.

And I just realise something. When I act out today, not only was I like a statue, I did not even have the courage to do something daring. If I'm like that now, what about in the future where roles are concerned?

I was thinking also. I can't cope with freaking H1 Math. Not to say H2 Chemistry. But I'll try to cling on to H2 Chemistry (So after the blogging, i'm going to so study chem). I've decided. If I enroll into Nanyang JC successfully, I would work hard till when finally I get my Promo results, And I fail (choy! Choy! Choy~!), I would go withdraw from JC straight away and go Poly. It is really not worth to go repeat a second time when I've already set on an idea to go do Biotech. I go poly is to go become a teacher and teach Humanities or something at secondary level.

My friend asked me to go sign up for the NIE thing. Sounds interesting though. When I've finally enrolled in NYJC, I might consider. HAHAHA probably go torture some students... AHHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHHAHA

Got to go... Fix up the other picture post.

Now in school. Wasting my time till 9.30am... I came too early for drama...

Anyway, the Othello casting, I didn't get the major roles. I'm in the company. Which I'm rather relieved because I haven't had much experience to play the major roles. I hope to play the clown though...

The part I actually wanted to play was Bianca. The prostitute. hahahaha...Slutty right? I like it. But I guess I shouldn't. And I didn't get the part anyway. There was another girl who suited the part because she knew how to talk the bitchy way. Not that she is bitchy...But she knows how to create the voice naturally. And I thought she was cool...

Haix...

I've registered for the JAE at home so now I'm pretending to be registering here in school till 9.30am... like real..Everyone must be thinking this poor girl has no internet at home...whahahaha....

I put NYJC first...Duh... then I put Yishun JC because not only are my friends there, I heard they are not bad...Though they have the worst cut off points..I thought they would have raised it after being in the top few... Anyway...Yishun is just a backup...NY is of course my first...

I put poly education after the two JCs... First TP's Biomedical Science/Biotechnology. Second NP's Molecular Biotechnology. Third Tp's Veternary Technology ( which my mom forbids me to join... but I still put it in...Bleahx...) and lastly TP's moving images...

Anyway....Got to go for drama... Bye..

I'm so freaking frustrated and I don't know why. First the freaking post cannot load the pictures on the class outing. Next, I HATE CHINESE NEW YEAR.

Every year, Chinese New Year would never ever fail to make me pissed about cleaning the fucking house. Now my parents are fucking complaining about some food thing. And I hate to clean my fucking room. The most fucking pissing me off thing is that my fucking fringe just keeps coming down. I feel like chopping the fringe of... Shave bald you know.

Fucking hell. Fucking CNY. I hate it. I'm tired of visiting here and there. I'm sick of it. A sense of gathering? A sense of feeling fucking exhausted. Going around putting on fake smiles. The only consolement seem to be the ang-baos. I think in the future I won't even remember when CNY is anymore. Because it is a fucking festival to remember.

Fuck la...

Just now the previous post was how I was feeling just now. But now I feel much better. I think it is because my Menstruation is coming then I PMS-ing. So that's why I feel ultimately depressed. Gosh. I can turn violent in times.

I am sorry that I sent the chain letter to Hui Min. She wasn't happy about it. So I apologise here again.

When I read her reply, I finally realised how a fucking assholic bitch I can really be. I am no good friend. I deserve death. Like what the sms said might as well go die. Yes. I should really die. I should really burn in hell. I should really just slit my wrists now. Bang my head on the wall. Jump down. Hang myself. Gas myself. Burn myself. Skin myself. Stab myself.

In the toilet, I cried. I just kept thinking of ways to die after seeing the reply. I don't know why. I really felt very guilty for sending that at a time like this. Now I regret.

Somehow, I keep doing all the wrong things, say all the wrong things. I don't understand why I am keeping up this fucking hell ji bai kind of attitude. Am I not wrong to say so?

I really feel like I should not be in this world. For doing what I did I should get banged down by a car and just die with squashed brain.

I hate Chinese New Year. I hate myself and everything I have done wrongly and selfishly. All that happened in this world that is bad is because of me. I should die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die. Die.

I am the bad luck of the world. The cursed omen. Why? Why? Why was I born into this world, when I did all these sinful things? I should really just die. I should just suffer a heart attack and die. I should be skinned alive, let maggots feast on my exposed flesh. Rip my intestines and cook it. Let me suffer all the tortures in the world.

I should just kill myself now. But where is the knife? Where is the courage to do it in the first place? Why can't I pluck up a single fucking courage to just slit my wrist? Why? Why? Why?

Why Live?

On the way to Pasir Ris Park...

Took 88...Such a familiar sight...

I have lots of acne...Gosh... All smiles and cheesses....

On the way home after playing frisbee...actually want to play roller blading or cycling...but no time, so ended up playing frisbee. I have the frisbee with me...

TRIO...caught Linying unaware...

Molester and Linying...

Molester and Lin Ying...Lin Ying scared of him... see the distance between them

Never look at my camera....hahahahhaha No la...I extra go take one...

Have you heard Charlie's angels in Singapore? Now you've seen them.

The guys in our class... there's supposed to be two more la... Moorthy ACBC LOR....Bleahx...hahhahahaha

All the chio bu in class but not all the chio bus came (>_<)

we went delifrance...

Screening through the other "paparazzi camera...

I put the cup under Moorthy's arm but he didn't see and he knocked it off...Drenching his jeans and bag... hahaha partly my fault la...hahahhaa

I didn't eat anything cause I didn't bring enough. but hey, the class treated me to a free Ice Cream...actually it was also extra I think (^-^)

Moorthy's Ice Cream mixed all up. He said the colour's disgusting. It is a bit like the colour of menstruation but it is certainly sweet...hahahaha I tried it...

I took picture of them without letting them get ready... See, chemistry building up le..

Think you've caught them red-handed? No lor... they just happened to walk too close together like holding hands...(you must be thinking.."cheeeee....")

In the following pictures, the both of them are forced to do it...WHAHAHHA...Our class is evil de lor...hahahaha including myself...

In some of the scandalous pictures, you see one extra light bulb right, that one extra extra... ahhahah spoil atmosphere man...

Anyway, that's about all the photos for that day... i put some more interesting things that happened today...

I really don't know why there is a scooter there but it was in the drain or LONG GAO...

I lost the back of my badge to fasten it. So I have to buy new one... What the shit... waste my chicken rice money...
The cat at my house downstairs. I just take her for fun. but I forgot to turn off the flash and so she was so shocked...hahahaha her eyes were like so big...hahahaha cute but FAT..ahhahahhaa

Ok...I've really got to go... I've been uploading so much photos on the blog that it has taken about 2 hours to do so... Of course I was looking at my Hee Chul...Can I just call him Cinderella? they say that is his nicky...hahahahaha... Yeah... so i was looking at Cinderella...Yeah and the Super Junior -U mv... Damn nice. i played it like about 6 times today already...Hahahhaha...

Haven't done my History project yet...going to do now... so later I'll record the song U in my phone to put as ringtone...hahahahhahahaha I ROCK!!!

.Rm.Ch.Ls.Fb.Rh.

So sad... I'm in school now and yet I cannot watch youtube because my school don't allow it. That's why I can't even see the videos I uploaded in my own blog. What the shit. I wanna watch Hee Chul. Suck.Shucks. I'm crazy.

.Rm.Ch.Ls.Fb.Rh.

Gosh...I think I'm crazy about the pretty guy...hahhaha...anyway...today I had class outing and it was so fun. But I can't upload the photos because of the bloody battery...Then Samantha needs the pictures lor... what the hell...why such things happen on needy days?

anyway the pretty guy is called Kim Hee Chul. Cute!!



There is another video but it cannot be shown as the owner of it don't allow.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Mg3f6WmqBxQ

He is so Hot!! Shit la... I head over heels now...haahahhalallalalalalalalala....

Before I go, I want to show you a group not known to many that was formed, if I'm not wrong, 2005. They are quite cute. But look closely for the pretty boy with long hair....\(^-^)/

They are called Super Junior...So CUTE!!!!!!!! The pretty boy especially when he is singing. Oh my gosh. Man. I like pretty boys...Does that make me weird???hahahahaha....Anyway, I think if Singapore sells their album, I might go check it out. They can sing! hahah....Rm.Ch.Ls.Fb.Rh.

My dinner so pathetic...chocolate only...(-__-)

Gigantic mouth...waiting for flies to go in

Haven't seen 3 babes before? Now you see them...hahahahahah

I was too full to eat at all...This is the leftover noodles and NICE herbal chicken...YummY!! (@_@)

I drank about 1 and a half wine without getting drunk...GOOD....SHIOK! (>.<)v
Why are there so many pictures of me and Anne, because it was more convenient to sit and take this way...hahahahha

We went out to walk later, where I had such pains walking in heels...heels=hell

I thought I'll never get to see this at Orchard....

The photo that I look the nicest in...But look at the flabby arms!!!!! (>_<,)

Hahahhaaha...Well, the wedding was fun! And sweet...

.Rm.Ch.Ls.Fb.Rh.