Boy.

Tomorrow is the English Prelims. Well, I am on the net to search some vocab for a good composition. I love composition compared to comprehension. I have to search the net for examples of situational writing. Ms Balan gave us a proposal writing, probably, it would be the same as the exams.

But I really hope they give us formal letter writing, I love that better than informal letter writing and proposal writing. Because it is short and straightforward. Well, I am currently sort of crazy for this show called, " My Lovely Kim San Soon" or something like that. I just find that show really hilarious and never fail to make me laugh. It is better that Dae Jiang Gong (Da Chang Jin).I heard it is based on a top book in Korea.

The actress acting as the main character is supposed to be hot. But for this show, she has to gain 9KG!!! Wow... But the guy is charming. He's real name is Hyun Bin if I am not wrong. My sister loves him. But I think he is charming and really cool looking.

But I think if you want a cute person, this should be him-

TaDA!! Cute, huh? My sister introduced me to this actor cum singer in Japan. Like a little boy. Cute smile, big eyes. Singapore...Don't have. hahahaha... Anyway. He is called Teppei. And from the two-person band "WAT", which was shown on the TEENAGE magazine long time ago this year. But their CD is cannot be found in normal CD shops. Most probably, My sis and I have to go to SUNTEC to find it.

Singapore...So difficult to find all these CDs. Either censored or not liscensed. No wonder everyone turned to downloading and file sharing.

Well, I'd better get back to my studies now. bye bye.

.Rm.Ch.Ls.Fb.Rh.

Since I didn't go to school today, I think I will update my blog then I'll go study. Okay.

I am very unlucky. Yesterday, I came to school feeling extremely tired. I was so tired I couldn't even open my mouth to eat. Even though I was hungry. Then after the recess, I felt sick and stomachache Eventually, all the bile and greenish stuff. Boy, was it bitter.

I felt so weak that coming home from remedial felt so challenging. I really have to thank Sophie, Sai Gin and the rest of my classmates that helped me. Gosh. I have not vomited like that before. Usually, there would not be any bile. Haix.

So I came back, feeling so tired and weak that I fell asleep on the sofa. I slept till 1945 or so. My mom told me that she called me many times but I couldn't wake up for dinner. Well, I felt feverish and I measured my temperature. It was 38.6 degree celsius. The first time I had a fever that was that high. I was shocked really. I tried to eat dinner but I couldn't. I had no appetite. Gosh. After I bathed, my temperature shot up to a shocking 39.1 degree celsius. Man, It was a high fever. I thought I was going to die in my sleep or something. hahaha.

Anyway, I could not sleep properly. I covered myself with all the blanket and coat, but it only made me more feverish. Then I decided to let myself cool and wallah! My fever went down fast. I remember waking up measuring my temperature. From 38.8 to 36.9 in the morning.hahaha. But I sweat a lot through the night. It's a rough night.

But what I am most sad about is that, today is the class photo shoot and I would not be in it. :( My mom said it is better not to go if not I might get sicker or I might get my friends sick or something. And to think, the prelims are next week.

But I am recovering, though I still feel a bit goggy and feel like I am going to vomit any moment, But at least the fever is gone. I think I am going to study now. Bye bye.

It's been long since I have typed my blog in English. Well, after some feedback, I have concluded that my blog in chinese is unreadable.

I am guilty of not studying these few days, even when my mom is desperately getting me to study. I don't know what I am doing. It's like...I have no goal. All I know is to study well. But where am I heading to? Most of my friends already have the idea of what they want to be. But me? Still a blank road. With no destination, with no path. I'm standing in the middle of crossroads and in the middle of nowhere... The only goal I have is to achieve well and get my mp3. But what use is there in getting an mp3 without the true motivation?

I keep telling myself the mp3 is my motivation. But now it's like the chinese proverb: 3 minutes of enthusiasm. Now I have no motivation at all. I just keep lazing around. Not interested in my studies at all. Some people may think, a nerd like me, would not be a much problem to aim high. No. It's not. But it is whether I want to or not.

Nowadays, I don't even touch the book. Once I sit down and really study, something occurs to distract me. I don't know what's wrong with me. As I'm writing this, the more blank I am, the more worried I am, the more I feel like crying.

It is like being so helpless. Will no one help me?

I even feel sick of my favourite subjects- Literature and History. I'm getting lazier and lazier and prelims and O's are getting nearer and nearer. But I am still troubled.

What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? What should do? What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? What should I do?

What's wrong with me? Help me.